Multiple Ailments Started After Taking the Drug Hppd

I would appreciate your help.

When I was 11 I had an attack of Pancreatitis. The causes was undiscovered. I was OK, but I always suffered from anxiety and depression and unable to get up in the mornings.

When I was 30 I took a drug that gave me HPPD. I don't know if you are familiar with that. My life changed completely from then. I began to have panic attacks and went to UCLA to get help for them. I was free from the panic attacks but had underlying depersonalization and anxiety.

When I was 37 I had a ruptured appendix and pancreatitis as a complication.

I was fed full of antibiotics and after I got out of the hospital, I was terribly depressed and was unable to eat. I also felt a bit manic. I was put on Paxil which was a terrible thing to do, I was better for about 6 years but coming off of it was a nightmare. Even on it I still had depersonalization, anxiety and some depression.

I keep telling my doctors, something is wrong, my rear end itches unless it is perfectly clean and I had a funny smell from the pores on my face.

Then my depression got so bad that I tried to take my life..........

and things are just terrible.

Currently, I suffer from terrible depression, depersonalization, anxiety, racing thoughts, pacing , and agoraphobia unable to concentrate, or read a book and my mind is so confused. Physically, I have trouble eating and have the yeast smell coming from my pores and have very funny smelling gas.

I am not winning the battle here, and wish you could give me some advise....

I know it is a lot, but I want to try to regain my life back...... All my life I feel like I am in a fog and uunable to keep the task at hand rolling as a watch my friends move on with their lives and I sit in such a poor state of affairs.

This has been going on for 17 years........

Thanks in advance